I think about this shit too much.
So its 1:47am and I’ve been IMing my friend in Texas for about 2 hours now. Its something about the way we talk, it makes me sit and wonder what life would be like if…. and that’s where I get stuck. I get these feelings like Stan did in that 1 eminem song. I get a feeling like we should be together. We talk daily when time allows us and we try not to be judgemental, well he doesn’t but hey, I guess he likes me for who I am. He’s kind hearted and I’ve witnessed him through 2 major break-ups in which he didn’t deserve. Tonight we talked about a lot of things. And it just made me feel like hey, we’re two different people that click together more than perfectly. I don’t wanna get all sobby about it, but its just more than a friendship to me. And oh yea he’s gay so what! I fucking like him and that’s fine. The thing that kills me is that he doesn’t seem to even want to meet me. *oh btw I never washed my face last night so my acne came back, thanks!* but um like I was saying, it seems as though he’d rather I stay living a boring life here at home. Umm no. I’m moving to the party city of Florida, Miami. With this one I’m all over the place because its early in the morning but I’m not publishing this till after 11:30 tomorrow night. He came onto me 1 day saying we met somehow, I don’t even remember. Then I’m like, um no idk you but sure, I’m kevin, its nice to meet you. Lol :). Once I found out how chill and laid back he was, I began to like him a lot more not realizing that distance is always an issue when dating. I just never brought up the fact that I think that we should be together since we obviously spend the time that we have together, and we enjoy it. And trust, sex is not an issue. Haha jk. But either way he’s simply a great person that I could see spending my life with. Its amazing to me how random people can easily connect. Hopefully he doesn’t think I’m some easy hookup, ugh. Nooooo!!! Well this shouldn’t change our friendship either. I’d rather just keep it this way while its working. And to him, I hope you feel sorta how I feel, if not, its not a hard heartbreaker, I understand. Untill next time folks.
